still loosing weight and got an apprenticeship and there’s a permanent job at the end of the year, first good week in ages and i start driving soon. :-) hope things get better from now, its been shit for too long.
i feel i’m waiting on something that’s never going to happen. i want to know where i stand but i’m scared of hearing the worst, which is what the outcome will be. for me to smile and feel genuinely happy just because you speak to me just tells me something. but i just know this isn’t mutual in the way i want. hmph! i just need to put the front on i guess. s m i l e